FIRST TIME

People keep on coming and going in your life and very few of them become friends of yours. For me its a different thing, people come in my life and i start to think that they are my great friends.

Regarding freinds i have a philosophy in life. According to me people will fall under 2 categories, my friends and no one. I can do anythin for the first kind and will do nothing for others.

I dont think there is anything wrong with my philosophy, but there is something wrong with my thinking for sure. I start thinkin that the person who i consider as a great friend of mine will also have similar thinkin abt me. I always have some set of expectations defined from that person, and this is where my thinkin fails.

If i think about my friends and my gang (friends' group) even from my school days and then college days and then those i made at my work place, i think i always had some respect among my friends. I always used to be famous, atleast for few, among my friends and if i had to say something everyone will listen to me. But, for the first time in my life i have felt just opposite of this. First time in my life i felt as being uninvited in a group that i thought to be my group, first time in my life i had a feeling that i am no one among my friends, first time i had a feelin that i m non-existent to many and first time i relaised what i have to say doesnt matter at all for many.

i always had a habit of being in limelight among my friends, but for the FIRST TIME that limelight has been shut down. Well, i know there is always the FIST TIME but i didnt want it that way. Either i am wrong in some ways or i just thought a group of people to be my friends who are not the way i expect my friends to be. Whatever it may be it is really for the FIRST TIME.