Please Forgive Me

This is for all those who i have considered my frnds.

i know sometimes i behave too strange as i guess i m too moody and in those cases i generally say those things which i shouldn't ever had or which i do not even mean and which i do not even know that i have just said.

I just say all this without even thinking that it can hurt you and when i m back in my normal mood i think everything will be fine.

Yes, everything has always been fine after that till now and the credit for that goes to everyone of you for bearing me.

Thanks for everything and also i will like you all to forgive me for that.

i do not know why i have written all this but i was really feelin down at the moment thinkin that always its me who goof up everything.

A Normal Abnormal Life

Why do i write here? Well, the answer is simple. I write here coz i always have had problems expressin myself to someone.

Or may be i write here coz i dont want that person to know that i m writing this because of him/her. Though, i will admit that all of my previous posts, with few exceptions, were related to me only and not to anyone else.

May be, someone has caused me to write this, but still, again, the reason for this post is me only.

i m feelin somethin different, something strange these days. i have the feelin that i know why its happenin to me, but i dont want this to go on, coz i know in the end it will be me who is HURT.

i m not sure if i want others to know the reason for this and even if i want, i know i wont be able to express myself.

So, lets make it simple to avoid any confusions around.

i think my preferences are being changed, i think that i am being transformed into a normal person and that's what causin me problem now coz i always have loved my abnormal behaviour, i always have loved my days of miseries and i always have loved my pains.

Or again is it the same thing that i posted long back about 'Happiness, Misery, Sanity'.

Yes, its gotta be the same. i know what's going on now. i will have a short period of me living a normal happy life and after that my life will knock me down again. My life will make me understand not to rise and stay in the gutter where i always have been. My life will kick me hard on my face, to leave me to bleed profusely, and then i will enjoy my NORMAL life of being ABNORMAL, living happily ever after or ...

Finally ... upgrade is over!!

Well, it is about an year that google upgraded blogspot to blogger, but it took me really a long time to upgrade my blog to the new version.

The reasons were many.
First of all i had the skills to edit the old blogger templates to give it my custom looks. But when new blogger came i was not sure how will i get the same looks and feel on the new version.

Secondly, to get a hand on to the new version it required to devote some time on it.

Thirdly, i was busy with other blogs , that i started in new blogger only, and it was because of those i got to learn how will i edit the templates.

So, now i finally took out some time, with enough skills to give the same old feeling to my old template and upgraded it to the new blogger.

And if some of you are thinkin that i have not posted anything for a long time then let me tell you, i post here only if i m feelin frustrated, disgusted or down. And i m sure you will be findin a new post here within a few days coz this time again i m not able to decide what am i goin to do in my life, i m really confused as some developments are going on but not sure if they will be for good or as always .... BAD!!!