Jaadu Ki Jhappi

Once upon a time in my life not so long ago, i was feeling too low and i was crying from within. I did not know what to do and so i was wandering hopelessly and aimlessly. Just by a chance, i was noticed by two of my friends passing by. One of them came to me and asked what happened. I do not remember what i replied but he figured it out that i was feeling down at that moment. He did not say anything but just hugged me for few seconds and left. When he had left i was feeling better but still there were tears in my eyes, not because i was feeling down but because i was touched by the warmth of friendship he showed to me that day. It was only at that time i realised what a simple, but not so simple, hug from a friend can do. I realised a hug from a friend is a best therapy to feel better and i still believe in this therapy.

I have really started to believe in this 'Jaadu Ki Jhappi' treatment and believe me you all should definitely give it a try once. If you see any of your good friend feeling down and lost somewhere and you think he/she needs some emotional support then just try giving him a hug and trust me this will make a difference. Or get yourself hugged from a true freind of yours when you are feelind down and then you will realise what i mean.

Anyways, i do not know if that friend of mine about who i am talkin about will be able to recall that moment but what i know is that he will be reading this post. If he is able to figure it out then i will love to see his comment down here :-)

No Shit, Anymore

Enough of bullshit. I guess i get carried away so easily and this is ruining the quality of my blog. The recent posts have been all crap and i think i come up with the conclusions too soon without even tryin to know the story at the other side.

Well, so my blog will have no more shit of this kind and i will continue posting my freaky philosophy of life rather than cryin over things that do not mean anything.

For all those who i might have hurted through the medium of my blog here goes what i earlier posted -> "Please Forgive Me" , and i hope you will forgive me.

So this is the last shit here, i hope so.

Insignificantly Significant

Most of my posts on my blog talk about the same thing and they seem to be all same. What's different in them? If there is nothing that is different then why do i keep on writing what is all same? My posts are all same because usually i feel the same everytime. Or may be i write on my blog only when i am having that similar feeling that always provked me to write something on this blog. Well again, i am back with something that will resemble my last post.

i always think that i have some significance in this life, i think that i am significant to many, specially my friends, but what i feel is completely different. I think that i am significant, but i feel that i am insignificant. I do not know which of them is true. I do not know what i think is true or what i feel is true. Am i significant or am i insignificant, or is it that i am INSIGNIFICANTLY SIGNIFICANT?

i seriously do not know why i feel this way but sometimes somethings happen that do make me believe that i have no importance, people dont give a fuck to my existence and i am no one but just another person in their lives. The reason that may explain why i feel to be an isignifcantly siginificant person can be that i always think that i can go to any extent when my friends are concerened and i think i can do any thing for my friends. I not only think but i know i can and i will. But the problem is i always expect to get the same thing back from my friends. I think that if i can do so much why cant my friends do it for me. I sometimes feel that unnecessarily i keep on doing so much for my freinds and in return i get nothing. There are small things in life that may not mean anything for others but they do mean something to me. And these small things sometimes make me feel that i have no importance and i mean nothing and i do not exist for many.

Well, even if it still goes like this i will always keep on loving my friends, i will always try to think that i am siginificant to them, even if i get a feeling of being insignificant. I will love to live an Insignificantly Significant life rather than thinkin that i am no one.

FIRST TIME

People keep on coming and going in your life and very few of them become friends of yours. For me its a different thing, people come in my life and i start to think that they are my great friends.

Regarding freinds i have a philosophy in life. According to me people will fall under 2 categories, my friends and no one. I can do anythin for the first kind and will do nothing for others.

I dont think there is anything wrong with my philosophy, but there is something wrong with my thinking for sure. I start thinkin that the person who i consider as a great friend of mine will also have similar thinkin abt me. I always have some set of expectations defined from that person, and this is where my thinkin fails.

If i think about my friends and my gang (friends' group) even from my school days and then college days and then those i made at my work place, i think i always had some respect among my friends. I always used to be famous, atleast for few, among my friends and if i had to say something everyone will listen to me. But, for the first time in my life i have felt just opposite of this. First time in my life i felt as being uninvited in a group that i thought to be my group, first time in my life i had a feeling that i am no one among my friends, first time i had a feelin that i m non-existent to many and first time i relaised what i have to say doesnt matter at all for many.

i always had a habit of being in limelight among my friends, but for the FIRST TIME that limelight has been shut down. Well, i know there is always the FIST TIME but i didnt want it that way. Either i am wrong in some ways or i just thought a group of people to be my friends who are not the way i expect my friends to be. Whatever it may be it is really for the FIRST TIME.